This Shows How I Feel Right Now

"Let Go"-BarlowGirl

Yeah I trust in You
I remember times You led me
This time it's bigger now
And I'm afraid You'll let me down

But how can I be certain?
Will You prove Yourself again?

[Chorus:]
'Cause I'm about to let go
And live what I believe
I can't do a thing now
But trust that You'll catch me
When I let go
When I let go

What is this doubt in me
Convincing me to fear the unknown
When all along You've shown
Your plans are better than my own

And I know I won't make it
If I do this all alone



I don't know where I'm going or what I want next. I need to take my hands off the wheel sometimes.
He mush became greater. I must became less-John 3:30

Bucket List

Bucket List
1. Swim with dolphins
2. Go bungee jumping
3. Publish something I wrote
4. Live life to its fullest
5. Follow Christ
6. Make a difference in someone’s life
7. Have a conversation over coffee with as many different people as possible, one at a time
8. Leave a dollar where a kid will find it.
9. Complete a long term volunteer commitment i.e. AmeriCorps or Freedom Corps
10. Tour Europe
11. Start a conversation with a telemarketer.
12. Take a hot air balloon ride.
13. Go whitewater rafting.
14. Volunteer an overnight shift at a homeless shelter.
15. Work at a dog kennel, pet store, book store, or big box store (lol).
16. Learn sign language.
17. Witness a birth.
18. Go paddle boating.
19. Go whitewater rafting.
20. Donate a gallon of blood(not all at once)
21. Vote for president (2012).
22. Test drive a Volkswagen Jetta.
23. Write a letter to a newspaper/magazine editor & get it printed.
24. Work on a political campaign.
25. Ride an ATV.
26. Dye my hair red
27. See a Broadway show in New York.
28. Make or be in a youtube video with at least 200 views.
29. Have a duel with silly string.
30. Write a NaNoWriMo novel.
31. Get a bachelor’s degree.
32. Kiss the Blarney’s Stone in Ireland.
33. Volunteer at an animal shelter or dog rescue.
34. Not to be morbid, but to be there when someone PEACEFULLY passes away.
35. Demonstrate Christ’s selfless love to someone.
36. Fit into Victoria Secret sweatpants.
37. Ride a motor scooter.
38. Wade in a fountain.
39. Dance in the moonlight.
40. Get my cartilage or rook or perhaps nose (something besides earlobe) pierced.
41. Own a Toyota Matrix.
42. Drink coffee while listening to a good melody and hoping.
43. Have a career that helps people.
44. Continue failing until I succeed.
45. Name a car that I exclusively drive.
46. Dance in the rain.
47. Take a road trip with friends.
48. Be more self confident.
49. Cook a full East Indian dinner.
50. Shake hands with a celebrity or national politician.
51. Get a free icee on July 11 and drink it all at once until I have a brain freeze.
52. Get through a statistics course.
53. Put a quarter in a slot machine in Vegas & say goodbye to it. I won about $10!
54. Ride a mechanical bull.
55. Experience an earthquake without sleeping through it.
56. Read the Bible in a year.
57. Finish all the books I own that I still need to read.
58. Sew a pair of PJ pants.
59. Take a spinning class.
60. Hold a kitten.
61. See a solar or lunar eclipse.
62. Do another 30 hour famine.
63. Buy coffee or something for a stranger.
64. Be in a protest.
65. Find a four leaf clover.
66. Walk a rope bridge.
67. Play with puppies all day.
68. Learn how to skateboard or ripstick.
69. Keep a blog regularly for a year.
70. Don’t talk for a day (only done it for a school day).
71. Let a Magic 8 Ball dictate my life for a few hours.
72. Buy a cartoon of free range eggs.
73. Do a Chinese fire drill.
74. Go to a mosque, synagogue or a temple of some sort.
75. Get kicked out of a store or restaurant.
76. Be awake for 48 hours straight(my record is 42)
77. Drive a convertible or a car with a moon roof and blare the music.
78. Play Twister with different elements(ie condiments, dish soap)
79. Participate in a Polar Plunge slip n slide.
80. Write a “you’re awesome letter” to a different person everyday for a month.
81. Have a pet fish (never had one before).
82. Spend a day at an airport, drinking coffee, people watching, and journaling.
83. Go on a road trip with friends.
84. Take a photography class.
85. Learn how to edit videos, work a soundboard, and other cool techy stuff.
86. Renew my long expired CPR certification and then get first aid certified.
87. Have a job as a tour guide.
88. Stay at a monastery or any spiritual community for a few days.
89. Live a 50% tip at a restaurant.
90. Successfully give a speech in class.did it yestderday!
91. Go to at least 40 states.
92. Ride a segway.
93. Paint each fingernail and toenail a different color.
94. Go real camping in a tent for more than a night.
95. Have a lucid dream(one that I control)
96. Donate a yard of hair(about a third of the way there not all it once)
97. Take horseback riding lessons
98. Spend a day doing random acts of kindness.
99. Have a cart race at Wal mart.
100. Teepee a house.